Category: abuse
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Who Are You?
This poem is about my father who passed away from pancreatic cancer in 2015. He died within 6 weeks of his diagnosis. After announcing his condition through email, he refused to see anyone for two whole weeks. He was a very independent and proud man who wanted to take care of business before letting people…
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The Soul Would Have No Rainbow, Had The Eyes No Tears
This Christmas, I am gifting myself the gift of grief. I wrote a song on this particular theme because I’m so sick and tired of all the positive messaging I’m constantly bombarded with. Everywhere… Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn … like… highlight reel allergy much. I’m not a cynic, but can I just get an honest (though…
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Praxis
What does retraumatization and gaslighting in church look like? This is my own account of what I went through as a victim and survivor of domestic violence. I have since left this church.
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Grief
They talk about griefIt comes in stages Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Acceptance But do they talk aboutThe stabbing painIn your heart? Do they mentionHow hard it is to trust again?How fearful you feelOf falling in love Giving your heart away again? Do they talk about the hollownessThat you feel in the depths of your soul? Do…
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Daenerys
I know now whyshe burned cities downI feel the fireof her dragons breathing downon me The righteous angerthat was never seenheard or feltthat was dismissedby a thousandmenand the lies ofmyths and traditions She grazed it downto the groundand burned everythingsymbolizing thosechains Born in the fireCleansed by her angerShe finds new life in the ashes
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Using Humor to Disguise Fear or Terror
“Oh, Peter, of course I understand. And I approve. I’m a realist. Man has always insisted on making an ass of himself. Oh, come now, we must never lose our sense of humour. Still, I’ve always loved the tale of Tristan and Isolde. It’s the most beautiful story ever told – next to that of…
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Listen
I rediscovered recently on an older blog of mine that I had forgotten about. My entries in that blog really spoke to me and reminded me of the person I am deep inside, someone that went into hiding for a long time. I wonder if in the process of being married and building a life…
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Scorpio Revisits The Mirror
Boxed in a living, brooding blackHot, crackling fury enraged in the vacuumI crave, I thirst,I am on my knees but Your words break melikeshattered glassand the screaming hammeragainst the door A child, blithelyBouncing, up and downUp and downon the mattress.Even as the worldCrumbles and implodes in the universe ofHer heart and The door is markedWith…
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Gaslighter
Over and over againIt goesIn my mindAnd my thoughtsMy soul Who was he?Who were we? Quiet memories ofEvenings spent watching LOTRAnd your favorite animes:Full Metal AlchemistDeath NoteNaruto I lived for theseMoments of connectionWith youWhere I could catch aGlimpse of theWorlds in which you livedThe tropes you operated on How many timesDid we fightAnd all I…
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Nice Girl
You try to be kindYou try to be goodBut have you been kindTo yourself? Have you thoughtAbout how muchYou can bearHow much you can carry? The only crossYou ever needed to carryWas your ownYet you had no time for that You see the sadnessAnd loneliness in othersBut do you seeThe devastation in your own heart?…
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Summer Roses
Pale PinkSummer roses in the skyRemind me ofDays spent alone at homePrepping dinner, playing houseand you’d returnWith a bunch of roses Back then you loved meBack then you held meBack then we loved andHurt so hardI couldn’t let go Now the pinkHas turned to blueAnd blackOn my body, my faceMy eye Nobody told mehow someone…
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