Category: Childhood trauma
This poem is about my father who passed away from pancreatic cancer in 2015. He died within 6 weeks of his diagnosis. After announcing his condition through email, he refused to see anyone for two whole weeks. He was a very independent and proud man who wanted to take care of business before letting people in. This poem captures the last moments I had with him and how I’ve tried to negotiate my relationship with him over the years, especially towards the end of his life, and even in the here and now.
They talk about griefIt comes in stages Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Acceptance But do they talk aboutThe stabbing painIn your heart? Do they mentionHow hard it is to trust again?How fearful you feelOf falling in love Giving your heart away again? Do they talk about the hollownessThat you feel in the depths of your soul? Do […]
I know now whyshe burned cities downI feel the fireof her dragons breathing downon me The righteous angerthat was never seenheard or feltthat was dismissedby a thousandmenand the lies ofmyths and traditions She grazed it downto the groundand burned everythingsymbolizing thosechains Born in the fireCleansed by her angerShe finds new life in the ashes