Category: Marriage

• Who Are You?

  This poem is about my father who passed away from pancreatic cancer in 2015. He died within 6 weeks of his diagnosis. After announcing his condition through email, he refused to see anyone for two whole weeks. He was a very independent and proud man who wanted to take care of business before letting people…

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  February 6, 2022

  abuse, acceptance, anger, Approval, childhood, Childhood trauma, communication, Family dynamics, Gender roles, Grief, Healing, inconvenient truths, Love, Marriage, memories, Morality, Relationship, self-knowledge, soul, speaking up, story-telling, Time, vulnerable

  Broken homes, covert abuse, deception, delusion, divorce, emotional abuse, Family, Family of Origin, gaslighting, Grief, identity, Intimacy, Introjection, lies, loneliness, memories, music, narcissism, perception, Psychology, Relationship, sadness, trauma, victim blaming

• Regret

  “Do you regret marrying Dad”I ventureWondering if she knowsWhy I ask “No, I don’t regret it” There is a pregnant pauseA naked silence “Why not?”I ask, undeterred “I don’t believe in the word regret” she offers Meanwhile,My brain is busy decodingwhat she’s saying “It doesn’t matter what you believe, but the wordexists mom”I mutter in…

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  January 14, 2022

  acceptance, communication, dementia, Family, Family dynamics, Grief, Healing, Home, Imagination, life, Love, Marriage, memories, mindfulness, mother and child relationship, self-knowledge

• The Soul Would Have No Rainbow, Had The Eyes No Tears

  This Christmas, I am gifting myself the gift of grief. I wrote a song on this particular theme because I’m so sick and tired of all the positive messaging I’m constantly bombarded with. Everywhere… Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn … like… highlight reel allergy much. I’m not a cynic, but can I just get an honest (though…

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  December 26, 2021

  abuse, anger, communication, domestic violence, Grief, Home, inconvenient truths, life, Love, Marriage, mindfulness, music, Relationship, self-knowledge, soul, speaking up

• Epitaph

  As if life wasn’t hard enoughYou and I danced a beautifulDance of dysfunction As I look backThere were all these signsBut why did I ignore them? Was it because I wasDrawn to the fireAs a moth is drawn toThe flame? You told me life was preciousBut you didn’t knowJust how precious it wasUntil you walked…

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  August 13, 2021

  christianity, communication, domestic violence, Gender roles, Healing, life, Love, Marriage, Psychology, Relationship, religion, self-knowledge, soul

  authenticity, Broken homes, Childhood trauma, christianity, codependency, conformity, contested divorce, covert abuse, deception, delusion, divorce, domestic violence, emotional abuse, femininity, gaslighting, identity, lies, loneliness, Love, Marriage, niceness, perception, personality, Psychology, Relationship, sadness, traps, victim blaming

• Listen

  

  I rediscovered recently on an older blog of mine that I had forgotten about. My entries in that blog really spoke to me and reminded me of the person I am deep inside, someone that went into hiding for a long time. I wonder if in the process of being married and building a life…

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  August 7, 2021

  abuse, communication, domestic violence, Family, Healing, Home, life, Love, Marriage, mindfulness, Psychology, Quiet, Relationship, self-knowledge, soul, Time

• Gaslighter

  Over and over againIt goesIn my mindAnd my thoughtsMy soul Who was he?Who were we? Quiet memories ofEvenings spent watching LOTRAnd your favorite animes:Full Metal AlchemistDeath NoteNaruto I lived for theseMoments of connectionWith youWhere I could catch aGlimpse of theWorlds in which you livedThe tropes you operated on How many timesDid we fightAnd all I…

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  August 1, 2021

  abuse, art, communication, domestic violence, Gender roles, life, Love, Marriage, music, overseas singaporean, Psychology, religion

• Summer Roses

  Pale PinkSummer roses in the skyRemind me ofDays spent alone at homePrepping dinner, playing houseand you’d returnWith a bunch of roses Back then you loved meBack then you held meBack then we loved andHurt so hardI couldn’t let go Now the pinkHas turned to blueAnd blackOn my body, my faceMy eye Nobody told mehow someone…

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  July 25, 2021

  abuse, domestic violence, Gender roles, Love, Marriage